Starting Slowly

Yesterday, I was in a super-di-duperdy crappy mood.  Given that, I think I did ok.  At least I kept track of what I ate (start small, rule 1). 

I started drinking coffee around 8 and kept going until about noon.  Black, strong enough to fix itself.

10 am  blueberry Greek yogurt.  Yummy.  It's so smooth it feels like ice cream.  My grandson Gabe has decided he loves Greek yogurt too.  I may be selfish, but I share that.

Around 12 I had brown rice/quinoa mix, pico de gallo (tomatoes, yellow onions, green peppers, cilantro, lime juice), shredded carrots, canned corn without added salt, tilapia with garlic and butter, cranberries. I bought all that stuff at the grocery store on the way to work and put it together.  As I walk through the produce section I think about what I want.  The cranberries were a neat touch.

2 pm I ate a piece of butterscotch candy.

I drank diet Coke all afternoon... well one bottle.

5pm at home.  I ate two chocolate chip cookies. 

6:30: spaghetti sauce (made with red, yellow, orange & green peppers) on white wheat bread with cheddar.  I don't really like white bread, even the "whole grain" kind, but that's what was there.

And then I ate about an inch out of a pint of Karamel Sutra.  At least I didn't eat the whole thing, and I do think that what I did eat made me feel better.  Some.

TODAY:

coffee
10: Peach Greek yogurt
diet Coke
2pm: Wendys small cheese burger, four fries, small chili.  My boss bought lunch.  It was pretty good and not too much.  A couple of fries go a long way.  I waited too long to eat and I was too hungry.
5pm: two chocolate chip cookies.  I'm still burping chili. 

I'm going to my counselor at 6, and I may eat yogurt or soup after I get back.

I don't think I've left anything off. 

I tried the meditation this afternoon.  (It's on Eating the Angel Way.)  I thought about being a baby and eating whatever was given me, not worrying about food choices.  I don't think I went very far, but I started to sort of panic.  I think I have food issues.  (Ya think?)  I'll try again later.