Yesterday I ate a not-outrageous amount of dark chocolate from France (which makes it better for you), a Chinese-like frozen lunch with lots of veggies, a bag of Frito's with French onion dip, a whole bunch of Popsicles, a half a blueberry Pop tart (cold) and yogurt. This is not what you'd call a stellar angel-eating day, but it could be worse. Really.
Back in the day, I would have eaten the tortilla chips, too. Also, a pint of ice cream, a pound bag of peanut M&Ms, and a box of Danish Wedding Cookies.
But still, it's not what I'd like to eat. Not just because it's "bad" food (there is no such thing as BAD FOOD, except maybe that fuzzy green thing in the back of the fridge). Because right now I feel like a salty, soggy, gassy bag of rice. And that's not what I want to feel like.
The other day I talked to a woman who said that if she ate one cookie, she'd go on a cookie binge & so she stayed away. She even said that to her chocolate was like alcohol to an alcoholic. And I almost said, "There is no bad food." Fortunately, I had to finish chewing the macadamia nut and white chocolate cookie before I spoke and that gave me time to think a little. And instead I nodded sympathetically and said, "You know what works for you."
That is what I want to say today. I know what works for me, sort of. I listen to Annie & Karen & Dr. Oz & Dr Ornish & even Oprah a little, and they, along with many others, give me insight and advice that is very helpful. Sort of like a guide book or an Atlas.
But the most important thing that I get from Annie & Karen is the admonishment to listen to my own body and to listen to the Angels. Moderation seems to work for me right now, but that doesn't mean it will work for everyone. It doesn't mean it will always work for me.
Maybe my friend needs to listen to her Angels and find out why she is addicted. But that's not for me. Maybe I need to find out why Frito's and French onion dip seemed to be the answer to my job stress: that is for me.
And maybe, while I sort through the job stress (still looking for a position as a hermit, FYI), I need to be a little more regimented in my eating. Maybe I need to set the worry of what to eat aside. Not a DIET, of course, just a plan that reminds me of the veggies & light protein I tend to forget. A list of light comfort food so I can get through the day and not have the added stress of what to eat on my mind. Food I like more than Frito's and French onion dip; food that doesn't make me feel like a soggy bag of rice. Just a list to shake me out of my yucky food addiction phase.
We'll see, but that's what it sounds like my Angels are saying to me today. And I really need the advice.
